My long leave started 2 days ago... I'm supposed to be merry coz this's the season to be jolly... but tonight i feel rather empty. I'm bored & thinking of that certain someone. At times, when I lay on my bed I do wonder "what's he doing right now?" Sigh... So much for my no remorse preachings. I'm one big bimbo who does not walk her own talk.
I'm trying to get myself occupied so that I won't be lying down & thinking... but now I'm writing about it!? This has really got to stop. Some say the rain has influence over emotions. I say, screw those people and give me the sleeping potion!
12.18.2008
11.24.2008
Constant = Change?
"The only thing that is constant is change" Yeah, I've heard enough of this Organisational Behavior theory many many times during varsity years. But I didn't really think it'll affect my personal life so much.
Just when I thought I finally settled down, found my dream job, superb housemates... I should be worry free... But, my housemate is so capable that she got a new job that pays twice her current salary and she has to move out. Dang! Yes, of course it's hard to get another house mate but 2!? Just becouse 1 is moving out, the other 1 wants to do the same (to stay with another friend in Kota Kemuning). I'm in the process of searching for a new unit (coz thank god I've found a new housemate. Thanks, Jean!). Hopefully the agent will be able to find one or I'll have to move back home (which I don't want to)! I love Bkt Jelutong, I seriously do! You wake up to birds chirping & feast your eyes on lush greens of the golf course during meals... This is heaven! But my days here might be numbered!
A look at the bright side will be that petrol price went down so driving thru & fro fm home isn't much of an issue here. The fact that I finally have my own room (at the age of 24!) makes me reluctant to move back home. I enjoy keeping it cute, neat & the best part it's my own room...
I'm praying hard that I'll be able to get another unit for a reasonable price coz I wanna have my breakfast served in bed :P
Just when I thought I finally settled down, found my dream job, superb housemates... I should be worry free... But, my housemate is so capable that she got a new job that pays twice her current salary and she has to move out. Dang! Yes, of course it's hard to get another house mate but 2!? Just becouse 1 is moving out, the other 1 wants to do the same (to stay with another friend in Kota Kemuning). I'm in the process of searching for a new unit (coz thank god I've found a new housemate. Thanks, Jean!). Hopefully the agent will be able to find one or I'll have to move back home (which I don't want to)! I love Bkt Jelutong, I seriously do! You wake up to birds chirping & feast your eyes on lush greens of the golf course during meals... This is heaven! But my days here might be numbered!
A look at the bright side will be that petrol price went down so driving thru & fro fm home isn't much of an issue here. The fact that I finally have my own room (at the age of 24!) makes me reluctant to move back home. I enjoy keeping it cute, neat & the best part it's my own room...
I'm praying hard that I'll be able to get another unit for a reasonable price coz I wanna have my breakfast served in bed :P
11.13.2008
11.06.2008
007's Aston Martin
From Shell's garage. Cool (or blazing hot)! And if you are a die hard James Bond fan like me, you'll make every effort to go watch all 007 movies on the very first day they are showing. Although I'm dissapointed with the casting of Daniel Craig as 007, I have to admit that despite his looks, his stunts rock. It's just that Roger Moore & Pierce Brosnan rocks better! :P
10.31.2008
This is Holloween
Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn't you like to see something strange?
Come with us and you will see
Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Pumpkins scream in the dead of night
This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbor's gonna die of fright
It's our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween!
10.27.2008
Surviving With Pasta
Both my housemates are away for 9 days straight as they went back to hometown for Deepavali. This means that for 9 days straight I will have no home cooked food. It's hard to get chinese meals around here and I'll be stuck with either Mamak or Malay food. Poor me cuz I can't be taking spicy food every meal, my throat can't take it and I need my voice to work. So that boils down to either driving all the way to Glenmarie for meal or I make my own dinner. So I took the bolder option and tried to make myself some pasta. A zillion thanks to Prego for making my pasta experience a pleasant one.
10.21.2008
Pink Fluff
"Green would be nice, I think...."
"How about pink?"
"How about pink?"
"Hmmmm..... not bad, feminine too."
"We can put in the princess crown & balerina tutu..."
"Alrighty, Pink it is!"
"Better don't buy normal hair dye.... Might be allergic to it.... How about getting edible colorant?"
"Edible?"
"Yeah those that we use for baking kuih & cakes.... I think can get in Giant hypermart nearby."
"Let's go since I ran out of corn flakes. Might as well grab a box while we're there."
And the ultimate masterpiece......
Ladies & gents
presenting for the first time
MAXXIE
the female maltese (aka B**ch, oopppppsss!)
in PINK
Don't you feel the Deepavali spirit already?
10.01.2008
I'm Bored....
I'm bored... working pm shift during Hari Raya... which ends at 11.00pm another 1hr23mins more to go... i'm cold... i really think it's about time to find a substitute for my loyal grey armour which has been with me since 9 years old... nothing to do... dunno what to write... i guess since i'm actually typing this... it must be a blue moon day... i finished my ration of mint chocolates... no more sugar boost... no cafeteria during public holidays... dang... no more chocs... pls save me... my eyelids are heavy... my fingers are buttery & fat... been hitting the backspace button for god knows how many times already just to write this short paragraph... if anyone is reading this... ignore me... i'm merely bored... right, just "merely"... another 1hr17mins... who's the genius that invented clock work!? human greatest materpiece, my ass... pardon me but i'm just too into my own musings at the moment... cough cough... threw up a few times yesterday... suffering from "i think i am going to be sick symptom"... sigh... dunno what to write... really... my right frame of mind is screaming telling me to better stop this meaningless drabble...
7.12.2008
Fluffy Chaos
This 'lil fella belongs to one of my house mates and has broken into my room and chew on the posters! Guess what, I happen to get a free balloon during the rooftop party on Thursday and I plan to pop it in front of the white fluff when no one is around. Oh, ain't revenge the sweetest thing? :P
6.28.2008
6.26.2008
6.21.2008
Teddy Project #3
The beginning of another new partnership with daddy.
Let's toast to another fruitful one!
Cheers!
Let's toast to another fruitful one!
Cheers!
6.20.2008
Often better with a little MOO
I think I finally found the reason why I like milk so much. I really can't seem to live without it. I can't really survive without milk for 2 days straight.
"Milk contains tryptophan, an amino acid that the body uses to make serotonin, which slows down nerve traffic and helps your brain unwind. You'll feel more relaxed and ready for a well-deserved snooze." ~ The Sun
So, let's MOO MOO!!!
6.18.2008
Five minutes to tea
It's another five to 3.15 pm on a lazy Wednesday afternoon (Boss not around until next Monday). Warm shawls are proudly displayed on shoulder and around the neck of others while I silently missed my legendary gray sweater. My numb fingers coiled around the kitty cup full of warm strawberry & raspberry tea, desperate for warmth. Thank you "Mr. New Water Dispenser". It just arrived today. This pink cuppa was truly a brew from heaven, I dare say. It's not as sarcastic as it sounds when you've just moved into a new office floor with the room temperature less than 15 Degree Celsius. Its sweet scent was a total bliss, the warmth, well, cozy enough to make my eyelids fall. As I sipped, I reminded myself again that my days here are numbered. Lips curved into a smile as cold fingers reached for the packet of raisin cookies.
Yes, it's very tranquil indeed…
Yes, it's very tranquil indeed…
5.23.2008
5.20.2008
I am 24...
... and still counting ^_^
There's only one 'F' word to describe my 24th birthday - FANTASTIC!! (which 'F' word you were thinking of? :P)
Nigo, thanks for the cute teddy card. Sango, thanks for the wonderful dinner. Yongo, thanks for the birthday wishes.
Nigo, thanks for the cute teddy card. Sango, thanks for the wonderful dinner. Yongo, thanks for the birthday wishes.
So the day started with some pasta lunch and then 2 movies in a row (totally laughed my head off!)
Then, there was the cake and Happy Birthday song..
Then, there was the cake and Happy Birthday song..
and the final blast at Souled Out. These two guys have bottomless stomachs, mind you.
After eight years of not seeing each other, I finally get to meet Asrul who works in the kitchen of Souled Out. God, when we stop growing upwards, we go sideways! Chuckles!
So let's toast to another wonderful year ahead and to my panda-look-a-like eyes tomorrow! Yawnnn..... Nite!
5.19.2008
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ALERT: Food Prices are rapidly rising around the World.
100 to 130 MILLION MORE people are going hungry.
18,000 Children die every day, and it's growing.
JUST CLICK! MONEY & FOOD are DONATED FREE!
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1 - Click "Join this Group".
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News : World Food Price inflation, the 'perfect storm' for hunger is happening right now! Millions more are going hungry! Riots are happening!
≡≡≡≡≡≡≡≡ This Group's Objective ≡≡≡≡≡≡≡≡
1. Every year, over $30 billion is made from the Internet because people Clicked! $1 billion of this, in 10 years time, will go to Charity (WFP) through Free Click Donation Sites!
Status: Awareness growing.
2. To expose World-wide Hunger, particulary Child Hunger, to the World.
Status: Between 5 and 6 million people invited/made aware. 2.5 million people have joined.
≡≡≡≡ So how does it all work!? ≡≡≡≡
You click on web pages which have advertisements.
Because you clicked and saw the ads, the advertisers pay money directed towards FREE FOOD!
http://www.worldofgood.com/sn/f <-- Just Click & up to $25,000 will be donated to the World Food Programme, by this group! If 5 people click, 1 more meal gets paid. Up to 100,000 meals! But we need you to first click!
HUNGER & STARVATION: WHAT IS IT LIKE???
When hunger contractions occur in the stomach, the person sometimes experiences mild pain in the pit of the stomach, called hunger pangs. Hunger pangs usually do not begin until 12 to 24 hours after the last ingestion of food, in starvation. A single hunger contraction lasts about 30 seconds, and pangs continue for around 30-45 minutes, then hunger subsides for around 30-150 minutes. Individual contractions are separated at first, but are almost continuous after a time.
Individuals experiencing starvation lose substantial fat and muscle mass as the body breaks down these tissues for energy. Catabolysis is the process (medical condition) of a body breaking down muscles and other tissues in order to keep vital systems (such as the nervous system and heart muscle) working.
≡≡≡≡≡≡ How do we end World Hunger? ≡≡≡≡≡≡
1. Exposure, exposure, exposure to enlighten.
2. Donations, donations, donations towards the poor.
3. Economic development, better policies, and enlightenment of everyone to develop sustainable societies for food production, all the way to grass-roots.
4. Organizations providing cheap food, off the market, to the WFP and other humanitarian organizations.
5. Awareness of what drives up food prices, and preventing this with alternative solutions.
These 5 steps will end World Hunger. But it takes work.
Make it happen now: http://www.poverty.com/internationalai
AND HELP SAVE THE WORLD.... MORE!
≡≡≡≡≡≡ Help Education : Free Donation Clicks! ≡≡≡≡≡≡
http://www.buildaschool.org - Help build a School!
http://www.e-inclusionsite.org/en/clic
http://www.theliteracysite.com - Free Books to the poor!
http://www.ripple.org/give.php?p=educa
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http://www.giveaminute.org/ - Give Healthcare!
http://www.thebreastcancersite.com - Stop Breast Cancer!
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http://www.solvepoverty.com - Help Jobs!
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≡≡≡≡≡≡ Clean Water for All : Free Donation Clicks! ≡≡≡≡≡≡
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http://www.cliquesemiarido.org.br/eng/
5.17.2008
Wow! What a day!
Today, I went out with mommy and her friend, Uncle W to quite a few places. To start with, we went all the way to Semenyih ~ because Mommy wanna bring me to try out a yummy-licious fish (wrapped in aluminum foil). So we had mutton, drunken chicken, steamed fish & tom-yam fish. Uhh... burrppppp! Excuse me, please. I was very stuffed and of course, 2 thumbs up for the cook. By the time we finished the meal was around 3.30pm (the journey from KL was quite long). So, end of event #1.
Event #3 : So from Semenyih, Uncle W drove all the way to Shah Alam to fetch grandma and then we went to Teluk Gong for dinner. We reached the restaurant at about 6pm. Come to think of it, didn't we just had lunch!? Uhh.... talk about putting on the kilos! Dang! Arghhhh... don't care cuz the lala fried meehoon was too sinfully tempting and devil-ish to resist! The chinese tea was exotic too. Had never tasted it before. Some great souvenirs from Uncle W's hometown in China. Really, I've never once doubted Uncle W's taste for chinese tea and tea with him was always "ticklish" with his exceptionally good sense of humor.
Today was indeed great and Mommy said apologetically while applying her night restoring cream, "I'll be away for training next Tuesday. Just think of today as your b'day treat, ok?" Suddenly I'm diagnosed with chronic melting cardiac tissues and latex pulp legs. To her, I'll always be her little girl :)
Event #2 : The famous Sek-la-tok temple (dunno what's it called in English). This top of the hill architecture was awesome. I have to say that this temple is surrounded by scenic and breath taking greens. Although it's a temple, there's a big fruit orchard at the back with mangosteen, papaya and durian trees. Unfortunately/fortunately, it's not the season yet so I'm saved from the to-eat-or-not-to-eat dilemma as my tummy was still full from the earlier meal.
Event #3 : So from Semenyih, Uncle W drove all the way to Shah Alam to fetch grandma and then we went to Teluk Gong for dinner. We reached the restaurant at about 6pm. Come to think of it, didn't we just had lunch!? Uhh.... talk about putting on the kilos! Dang! Arghhhh... don't care cuz the lala fried meehoon was too sinfully tempting and devil-ish to resist! The chinese tea was exotic too. Had never tasted it before. Some great souvenirs from Uncle W's hometown in China. Really, I've never once doubted Uncle W's taste for chinese tea and tea with him was always "ticklish" with his exceptionally good sense of humor.
Then, we grandma-napped (kidnapped) grandma back to our place and she's staying with us for a few days. I could use some extra company since it's holiday and as you guys know, dad, mommy and bro are just too busy for me. So I'll have someone to fuss over for the next 2 days (ahem, am beaming with pride).
Today was indeed great and Mommy said apologetically while applying her night restoring cream, "I'll be away for training next Tuesday. Just think of today as your b'day treat, ok?" Suddenly I'm diagnosed with chronic melting cardiac tissues and latex pulp legs. To her, I'll always be her little girl :)
5.15.2008
Teddy Bear Therapy
Author: Joan Sotkin
If your life isn't working the way you'd like it to, then I'd like to suggest teddy bear therapy to help you create life stories that are more satisfying and rewarding.
One day, way back in 1981 when I was living in Atlanta, Georgia, I had a strong urge to buy a teddy bear. I found one that was warm and cuddly. A few weeks later, I had a deep-tissue massage after which I started having a strong emotional release. I felt weepy and sad, so I got into bed and curled up with the teddy bear.
I started crying and found myself talking out loud about my feelings. I felt as if I was a young child who was hurt and wounded. Suddenly, I had a strong image in my mind of myself when I was three years old. I was standing by my baby brother's crib feeling alone and left out. Tears came for what seemed like a long time. I knew the pain I was releasing was very deep. When it was over, I felt as if I had released the weight of years of pain, and I realized how strong an effect the birth of my brother had had on me. The effect of the experience with the teddy bear was extremely healing.
Holding the bear had stimulated a memory center in my brain from a time in my life when stuffed animals and dolls were my friends. The bear enabled me to reach back in time to touch unreleased emotions that were stored deep inside of me -- emotions that needed to be released in order for me to heal. I have come to believe that we create uncomfortable life stories in order to express unreleased pain. By releasing the pain, we can change the quality of our lives.
The teddy bear enabled me to make contact with the part of me that is referred to as the wounded child. The child within us is always there; it is the part of us that feels, plays and creates. But there are two parts to our inner child -- the healthy part that feels comfortable expressing itself and having fun and the wounded part that feels hurt, rejected and disappointed.
All of us have a wounded child because all of us had experiences in our childhood that made us uncomfortable. Because we were usually taught not to express our true feelings, the wounded child has many uncomfortable feelings locked inside that want to find expression. The wounded child will act out these uncomfortable feelings in life stories unless it is allowed to express itself so that the wounds can heal.
Because we keep the feelings of the wounded child buried inside of us for many years, it is often difficult to reach the feelings and release them. But if you make a conscious effort to access the feelings and experience them one more time, then you can go back in time and release them and change the endings to your life stories.
For example, if you were emotionally abused as a child, then you are probably creating life stories in the present that have elements of abuse in them. There is a technique you can use to go back into the memory, re-experience the feelings then work through them. One of the ways to do this is to speak, from the child's point of view, to the parent who abused you. You can hold a teddy bear for support and tell the parent how you felt. Then you can imagine him or her (or both) apologizing to you.
Here's how to do it! First, find yourself a teddy bear that feels good to hold. The size will vary with your size -- the larger you are, the larger the bear should be. Once you have a teddy bear, you will want to hold it and use it in your own special way. You might also like to try one of the following exercises:
Give your teddy bear a name. Make it a real companion that you can talk to and confide in. Yes, you may feel silly doing this at first, but no one is going to know about it except you. It may take some practice, but after a while, you'll be able to connect to your wounded child.When you feel uncomfortable or unhappy, tell the teddy bear how your feel. Talk out loud. Use the phrase I feel _______.
Hold the teddy bear in one hand and let it hang by your side as you walk -- the way young children do. The idea is to rekindle feelings that you had as a child and by acting as if you are a child, you'll be able to do it.
Sleep holding on to your teddy bear. Any time you are feeling sad or uncomfortable, lie down and cuddle up with your teddy bear. Close your eyes and imagine that you are traveling inside of your body. Try to feel where you are experiencing the discomfort. Say, out loud, I feel so uncomfortable. Try to define the feeling. (I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel alone, etc.) This is an effective release technique.
Affirmations Can Help. Releasing feelings is often difficult and takes practice, especially if you were not allowed to express your feelings as a child. In order to stimulate the release process, you might want to try one of the following affirmations:
+ I release my fear of my feelings
+ I give myself permission to feel my feelings and release them
+ I release all pain and memory of pain
+ I give my wounded child permission to express itself
+ I release all pain and memory of pain
+ I give myself permission to love myself
+ I release my shame and embarrassment
+ I release my fear of self expression
You can repeat the affirmations any time during the day or during meditation. A good time to do affirmations is while you are driving, walking or doing mindless tasks such as washing the dishes.
If your life isn't working the way you'd like it to, then I'd like to suggest teddy bear therapy to help you create life stories that are more satisfying and rewarding.
One day, way back in 1981 when I was living in Atlanta, Georgia, I had a strong urge to buy a teddy bear. I found one that was warm and cuddly. A few weeks later, I had a deep-tissue massage after which I started having a strong emotional release. I felt weepy and sad, so I got into bed and curled up with the teddy bear.
I started crying and found myself talking out loud about my feelings. I felt as if I was a young child who was hurt and wounded. Suddenly, I had a strong image in my mind of myself when I was three years old. I was standing by my baby brother's crib feeling alone and left out. Tears came for what seemed like a long time. I knew the pain I was releasing was very deep. When it was over, I felt as if I had released the weight of years of pain, and I realized how strong an effect the birth of my brother had had on me. The effect of the experience with the teddy bear was extremely healing.
Holding the bear had stimulated a memory center in my brain from a time in my life when stuffed animals and dolls were my friends. The bear enabled me to reach back in time to touch unreleased emotions that were stored deep inside of me -- emotions that needed to be released in order for me to heal. I have come to believe that we create uncomfortable life stories in order to express unreleased pain. By releasing the pain, we can change the quality of our lives.
The teddy bear enabled me to make contact with the part of me that is referred to as the wounded child. The child within us is always there; it is the part of us that feels, plays and creates. But there are two parts to our inner child -- the healthy part that feels comfortable expressing itself and having fun and the wounded part that feels hurt, rejected and disappointed.
All of us have a wounded child because all of us had experiences in our childhood that made us uncomfortable. Because we were usually taught not to express our true feelings, the wounded child has many uncomfortable feelings locked inside that want to find expression. The wounded child will act out these uncomfortable feelings in life stories unless it is allowed to express itself so that the wounds can heal.
Because we keep the feelings of the wounded child buried inside of us for many years, it is often difficult to reach the feelings and release them. But if you make a conscious effort to access the feelings and experience them one more time, then you can go back in time and release them and change the endings to your life stories.
For example, if you were emotionally abused as a child, then you are probably creating life stories in the present that have elements of abuse in them. There is a technique you can use to go back into the memory, re-experience the feelings then work through them. One of the ways to do this is to speak, from the child's point of view, to the parent who abused you. You can hold a teddy bear for support and tell the parent how you felt. Then you can imagine him or her (or both) apologizing to you.
Here's how to do it! First, find yourself a teddy bear that feels good to hold. The size will vary with your size -- the larger you are, the larger the bear should be. Once you have a teddy bear, you will want to hold it and use it in your own special way. You might also like to try one of the following exercises:
Give your teddy bear a name. Make it a real companion that you can talk to and confide in. Yes, you may feel silly doing this at first, but no one is going to know about it except you. It may take some practice, but after a while, you'll be able to connect to your wounded child.When you feel uncomfortable or unhappy, tell the teddy bear how your feel. Talk out loud. Use the phrase I feel _______.
Hold the teddy bear in one hand and let it hang by your side as you walk -- the way young children do. The idea is to rekindle feelings that you had as a child and by acting as if you are a child, you'll be able to do it.
Sleep holding on to your teddy bear. Any time you are feeling sad or uncomfortable, lie down and cuddle up with your teddy bear. Close your eyes and imagine that you are traveling inside of your body. Try to feel where you are experiencing the discomfort. Say, out loud, I feel so uncomfortable. Try to define the feeling. (I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel alone, etc.) This is an effective release technique.
Affirmations Can Help. Releasing feelings is often difficult and takes practice, especially if you were not allowed to express your feelings as a child. In order to stimulate the release process, you might want to try one of the following affirmations:
+ I release my fear of my feelings
+ I give myself permission to feel my feelings and release them
+ I release all pain and memory of pain
+ I give my wounded child permission to express itself
+ I release all pain and memory of pain
+ I give myself permission to love myself
+ I release my shame and embarrassment
+ I release my fear of self expression
You can repeat the affirmations any time during the day or during meditation. A good time to do affirmations is while you are driving, walking or doing mindless tasks such as washing the dishes.
The History Of The Teddy Bear
In 1902 President Theodore Roosevelt was on a hunting trip in Mississippi. As reported in the Washington Post, the presidential hunting party. trailed and lassoed a lean, black bear, then tied it to a tree. The president was summoned, but when he arrived on the scene he refused to shoot the tied and exhausted bear, considering it to be unsportsmanlike.
The following day, November 16, Clifford Barryman, Washington Post editorial cartoonist, immortalized the incident as part of a front-page cartoon montage. Barryman pictured Roosevelt, his gun before him with the butt resting on the ground and his back to the animal, gesturing his refusal to take the trophy shot. Written across the lower part of the cartoon were the words "Drawing the Line in Mississippi," which coupled the hunting incident to a political dispute.
The cartoon drew immediate attention. In Brooklyn, NY, shopkeeper Morris Michtom displayed 2 toy bears in the window of his Stionary and novilty store. The bears had been made by his wife, Rose from plush stuffed excelsior and finished with black shoe button eyes. Michtom recognized the immediate popularity of the new toy, requested and received permission from Roosevelt himself to call them "Teddy's Bears." The little stuffed bears were a success. As demand for them increased, Michtom mooved his business to a loft, under the name of the Ideal Novelty and Toy Corporation.
At the same time as it was born in The United States, the Teddy Bear was also born in Germany. The Steiff Company of Giengen produced it's first jointed stuffed bears during the same 1902-1903 period. The company had made toys for a number of years and had produced small wool-felt pincushion type animals of many varities. The animals were the creation of Margaret Steiff. Steiff bears were first introduced at the 1903 Leipzig Fair, where an American buyer saw them and ordered several thousand for shipment to the US.
While other stories have been told regarding the birth of this wonderful toy, the simultaneous births in Brooklyn and Giengen are the best substantiated. The cartoon at the here is a later version of the Barryman cartoon as it appeared in The Washington Star.
5.14.2008
I am what I was
It's been two years since I left Uni and started to stand on my own two feet. No more exams, no more assignments and no more squabbling team mates. Vividly, I remembered my first day at work. So eager, so care-free. Singing along to the cheap radio, blarring my off-pitch voice in my mini yellow taxi all the way to work. I was on cloud nine.
The colleagues were good, I found friends worthy of a life-time. Til this day, we gather occasionally to share little giggles and life experiences over good food. I really missed them.
And I also just realised this one thing ~ I often blog about the past. The vibrant past. Why? It strucked me. Was I too deep into everyday's hassle that I did not stop to appreciate all things that I have at that one moment in time? No, I've always felt alive because I have a vibrant past. I am what I am because I was what I was. Vibrant... and will continue to be!
Don't give up!! Tomorrow will be better ^_^
The colleagues were good, I found friends worthy of a life-time. Til this day, we gather occasionally to share little giggles and life experiences over good food. I really missed them.
And I also just realised this one thing ~ I often blog about the past. The vibrant past. Why? It strucked me. Was I too deep into everyday's hassle that I did not stop to appreciate all things that I have at that one moment in time? No, I've always felt alive because I have a vibrant past. I am what I am because I was what I was. Vibrant... and will continue to be!
Don't give up!! Tomorrow will be better ^_^
4.13.2008
Crisis Core Indeed!
Thundaga! YEEEESSSSSS!!!! Die Genesis! DIE! Wahahahahha! You're no match for me!
Yes I did it! I just finished Crisis Core - Final Fantasy VII. The ending is a sad one. I mean MY ending! I've spent the last five days (making full use of my free time after work and the whole Saturday) on the game. Now I'm having a bad headache. On top of that I look like an endangered panda which had just escaped from the world wild life foundation research center. Yikes, president Mao please don't shoot me!
(Stomach growls) did I eat dinner just now? What about lunch? Don't tell me that I've not eaten anything eversince this morning!? (stomach growls again). Awww I'm really really hungry, tired and sleepy! Soldier First Class - Zack Fair! You owe me one, big time!
Crisis Core Indeed!
2.27.2008
I Hate My Forehead
It's just too big & ugly... and I'm too bored... so I made this... while I'm checking for vampire teeth marks... still I think it's good for laughs! LOL
1.19.2008
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